I got to see Monica a couple weeks back, under very sad circumstances. Having to endure the loss of your mother is something so painful I don't think I could ever bear. She showed so much composure and grace in light of such sadness. The worst part was that I had to leave soon after and didn't get to spend much time with her. It breaks my heart when I think back on that drive home.
What she's been through makes me evaluate my own relationship with my parents. How would I react if my mom or dad died. I rarely see them. I know it would hurt so much, but one of the tragedies of my family life is how distant my family is. I think I need to learn to appreciate more the time I have with them.
Also, last week I joined a friend at work for their 4th edition D&D campaign. Fourth edition is really cool compared to the other ones and I love the way they have the powers set up to be Daily or by Encounter. No longer are you stuck having just a few spells that you have to keep track of memorizing and worrying about running out of. It looks to be pretty neat and my friend's husband is doing a good job developing his world so far...even if it is a bit unfleshed out at the moment.
Another strange turning point occurred last night after IMing Monica. There's a bunch of people from my past that I used to chat with during my pre-transition days on my friends list. When I got on, several of them started IMing me. It was kind of creepy, as most of them are older and only wanted to show me their 'pics' and ask about hormone stuff. It seems there's a threshhold where you stop caring about that kind of stuff and it just becomes everyday. I guess it bothered me some, but maybe I'm just not tolerant anymore--which would be sad.
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Hmmm, guess that's why I don't use IM anymore.
So sorry to hear about Monica's sad news. My love and good thoughts are with you both.
I was so proud and so honoured to have you by my side at the funeral, Colleeny. I couldn't have made it through the ordeal without you.
Sadly, every day since our time together has been so hard- nearly unbearable. I miss you terribly.
....uhm....
Monica, I'm writing you an email...
As for you, Colleen, I don't think you're wrong to feel that way at all. That's one reason I've tried to avoid trannies the last few years or so. I can't really bring myself to care about "pics" or the things they brag about. I just can't.
For me, there's my friends and there's...trannies. I don't really care for trannies.
Is that mean? ;-)
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