Therapy

So I had another therapy session yesterday. My therapist is very cool. She's older, has long white hair and seems very liberal. Either way, she was helpful in narrowing down my problems with depression.

It sounds like much of it stems from emotional dysregulation. I have unreal hysterics and depression over certain minor things that happen occasionally, which then sinks me into depressive funks. She's going to be working with me to help me get the tools to respond appropriately to things that happen. Basically, I have the emotional responses of a 2-3 year old, because they were never able to mature.

The root causes of this, she says, are from a Fundamentalist upbringing, where you are told everything in life is 'black and white'. When you are stuck in an environment of blacks and whites, you develop irrational responses to things after you drift from your Fundamentalist world. As I got more liberal over the years after college, my emotional level wasn't able to cope with things which happened to me. It also sounds like she was insinuating that I may have a mild form or symptoms of borderline personality disorder. On the bright side, she says I don't have BPD, but instead exhibit a few symptoms of it, including the emotional regulation thing.

So things are beginning to make sense. Now I have to come to terms with what was causing that and get the tools to handle things better. At least now I know!