Ma Vie en Rose

Sometimes you watch a movie that is so beautiful and touching that you just go 'wow' afterwards. Ma Vie en Rose is an older movie and nearly impossible to find at any of the stores, but I was lucky to find a copy at a library and got to see this foreign gem. It's about Ludovic and how he sees himself as a girl. The movie is basically all about his family, neighbors and friends reactions to this revelation and the little twists that go with it. It is heartbreaking and heartwarming all at once as the family's status crumbles all because of something so innocent and sweet.

If you get the chance to check this movie out, go for it.

To Finish a World

I need to get back on track!

My novel is not progressing much other than a few pages. The important thing to do is just get this thing done! It's going to be a long book, and I'm not sure if I should split it up, but write now I just need to start writing.

Where is the motivation? Apparently you can finish a book in about a year with only 1-2 hours a night of solid effort. I think I need to start making time for myself in a better way.

The sad thing is, I know I have a good story. I just need to actually do it. Having an idea and having the fortitude to actually write it out are two very different things.

Again, it's motivation that's the problem. I need to get motivated! Growl!

Sermon on the Mount

I consider myself a very liberal Christian. I don't believe in much of the Bible--basically only the Gospels as they are the true core of what Jesus said and did during his lifetime. The gospels contain one of the most beautiful stretches of literature that I have read, the Sermon on the Mount.

If every Christian simply ignored the rest of the Bible and lived by the words in this Sermon by Jesus, we would have a beautiful world that we live in. Tragically, most Christians will never understand the implications of this sermon. For one:

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.

It is hard to live like this. It is so much easier to hate. Hate comes naturally when people wrong us or do bad things to us. Think of how our supposed "Christian Nation" would really respond to such things? Our macho culture is taught that being passive is wrong. Being beaten up and not responding is wrong. Our culture admires and even encourages revenge...and yet here Jesus lets us know in plain talk that that's not the right road if you want to be a Christian.

There are so many good lessons from this Sermon on how to be a good Christian. To greet the bad things that happen to us in life with grace and to offer warmth and love when greeted by hate and anger. Jesus turned much of the Old Testament on its head with his sayings and teachings during this sermon...so why do people still quote Leviticus anymore? Jesus said that everyone in our life deserves love...and most especially the people who don't like us or the people whom we don't like.

To my old friends that abandoned me, I love you. I wish you only the best and even though it hurts everytime I think of you, you will always be in my heart till my last breath.

To those that I've wronged in the past, I hope that you can forgive me for not realizing how wonderful you were and what a bad example of person I was.

All the Goodness

Things have been pretty good here lately. The only thing is that I've been feeling a bit crampy in my kidney area and it has hurt a bit to sleep at night. So the other day I went to the doctors to get some blood tests done for various issues, and they all came up negative. Now they want to give my bladders an ultrasound....I'm a bit leary about doing this as it probably will cost me a fortune and my health insurance sucks ass. I am sure it will cost like a bajillion dollars and most of it will be out of my pocket. So, we'll see though! I have until Monday to decide if I want to reschedule or not.

I've lost a few pounds lately by eating better and doing some simple treadmill walking. I love our treadmill and it is really useful during the winter and when you just don't feel like going out. Even better, you can watch TV while you jog or walk on the thing! How can you beat that...exercising AND being a couch potato?

Estrogen Madness

I am beginning to believe that dreams really may not have much meaning and are simply mentally induced madness and fun by your brain. I guess sometimes maybe dreams can mean something, but after last night, I am not so sure anymore.

Last night, I had a series of dreams, strung together in no discernable way, but I will try to highlight them simply to show how absurd it was:

• A time where a friend and I switched from playing Warcraft to apparently playing Live Action Everquest 2 and we were running along various islands killing things and solving quests.


• Living in a new home with a crazy Yorkshire terrier who went around and peed everywhere. I kept trying to clean up after him.


• Monica's husband buying me a set of transformers, including some strange green construction-like ones that shot Juicy-Fruit sticks out of a rocket launcher


• Going to a dinner party with twenty other girls in a strange outdoor courtyard and the meal portions were really small. The plates kept passing around in odd directions and ended up meeting at mine. After dinner, we all had to take our shoes off and head to a living room area to do Dance Dance Revolution.


• Zombie sex. This was too disturbing for me to even describe.


• Walking in on my old friends as they were sitting down drinking beers on a screened porch and arguing about D&D rules.

Easter Goodness

I didn't have a very exciting Easter, but when I came to work yesterday, there was a very inconspicuous package lying on my desk. inside, was a basket of goodies! A certain special Monica got me the most awesome basket ever, including lots of chocolate to ruin my diet, and of course kickass World of Warcraft figurines, which are doing battle and/or posing a variety of homoerotic positions on my desk.

And I also got the coolest Kobold t-shirt ever! I will totally take a photo of it on later and post here.

I must say, Monica rules! OH yes she does.....

Stupid Skin!

For the past week I have looked like a leper! I had some cryosurgery on my right hand to remove several splotches that were pre-cancerous. For the first few days, they started to bulge up into blistery ickiness. It was horror to say the least! I should've called George Romero to be a zombie hand model.

Now, they are bright red icky splotches as the skin heals. It really sucks and I can't very well go out and have too much lately because of them.

Being fair skinned has been pretty much a horrible curse I am thinking. I am in my early thirties and already experiencing all of this horror. I can't even imagine what the next thirty years has to offer for my skin. Needless to say, I don't go out in the sun anymore. I just can't chance aggravating whatever wicked things lie beneath my epidermis.