My old friends that abandoned me last year keep cropping up in my dreams and in my mind. No matter what I try, I can't seem to get over them or to stop trying to reach out to them. I almost would like something out of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, where I could just erase it all out of my mind, but then I would lose all the wonderful memories and fun we had.
How do you deal with the pain of caring about people who won't talk to you anymore? I can't stop caring and reaching out isn't going to work. How do you live knowing that nearly 10 people have just totally written you off in one fell swipe? It is just a horrible situation to be in and it's beyond my control to do anything about it.
Like the message of Brokeback Mountain, "If you can't fix it, you gotta stand it."